Monday, November 20, 2006 | 2:48 AM

Twenty Five Years

Assuming Jaz can live until 100 years old...
she has already spent one quarter of her life at this point of time.

One quarter life ago, 李爸妈 gave life to Jaz.
Jaz is sincerely grateful for everything
& anything she receives up to now.
The good, the bad, the neutral.

There's nothing much to comment about life.
After all, it's works like recycle bins.
Eat. Sleep. Play.
Study. Work.
Get attached. Get married. Have kids.
People come, people go.
People live, people die.
The world doesn't change for you.
It carries on.

For Jaz,
She would like to announce to the world:
She's not the famous kind.
The kind that wans everyone to know her.
She's not the noble kind.
The kind that will save the world or bring peace.
She's not the ambitious kind.
The kind that will find a stable job & earn lots money.
& she's definitely not the marrying kind.
The kind that will set up a family & have kids, educating the next generation.

Jaz is just a kid.
She juz wan to live a simple quality life.
She doesn't have the ability to do anything like above.

Counting the days ahead...
It's a matter of time before she has to take care of her aging parents.
& she'll most probably be spending a quarter of life on that.
Then another quarter life on finding a suitable place to settle down,
& spend the last quarter of her life.

But of course, most duno when is their last day.
So while you're still alive, you should have a plan to follow.
& ya. Jaz guessed that's most probably hers.

And before the 3rd quarter of her life is going to arrive,
Jaz thinks she should spend her 2nd quarter wisely & quickly.
To do something different while she can afford to.
However she doesn't have a goal for her 2nd quart.
And perhaps that is why she has been living as
a wonderful 'handywoman' for everyone around her,
as she ends her 1st quart aimless.
Fact is, Jaz has been searching for a goal for a long time.
天大地大， 该从哪下手?
Everything is possible but where does her path lies?

Jaz has been living quite an empty life.
She doesn't have the passion of those
who know what they wanna do in life.
She simply doesn't know what she should pursue.
(Oh, in case you duno, Jaz's a procrastinator.
She's too serious about life. LOL.)
& that's why she hasn't achieve anything till now.

Not that Jaz is very experienced with life...
She simply just able to see the skeleton of life.
You know...看破红尘 sort of thing.
But of course, she just sees, she doesn't know how to handle yet.

And weeks ago, she chanced upon something.
Something that might just take her away from where she is now.
NOW
A country, a culture, a place, an environment,
where her family, bf & friends are...
It's an opportunity to try something different...
Experience something foreign...
A chance to be independent,
without the things that she has been holding close to,
for the past 25 years.

Jaz admits she's afraid to make that bold move.
She's not sure whether that's what she wants to do.
She only knows it's where her peace of mind MIGHT be
& that she can solely get in depth
into something for a fix period of time...
without hinderance from the NOW.
Nonetheless, she's timid.
She's too used to her old safety net.
She can't bear to let go.
& not to mention,
She's not financially stable for it.

It is not easy.
Really not easy...
For a kid.

Oh mighty!
Please give her some hints!
Please shed some light on her life!
Please give her courage!
Please.